A 'NO, NO'

Got to know is a 'NO' word

It's a mixed feeling grows in my heart

My hope for SG turns into darkness, kinda unbelievable my application was actually being turned down

I must get up and search for another possible vacancy

Another try, why not?

Ever have surrounded with negative thoughts?

Negative thoughts arise, whenever the day turns dark

When darkness prevails, I seem live in an abyss with nothing to hold on

Helpless craws in my mind. I wish to escape, searching for light.

The night begins,

Clock ticking, so does the heart beats

The ticking sound accompanies me

The night has swallowed up the joyfulness of the day

It makes me feel empty

A long night awaits me

A Call, Perhaps?

My God..I'm now started to feel nervous in my vein. Where is my call? I just want a job in SG. Is it that hard to get it? Today, 4th Aug, Wednesday. She told me to call me by today, where is it?

Maybe need few days more for processing purposes? I have to calm myself with those excuses. *Shout* A job please! Whole day long sitting in front of my laptop scrolling through all the possible vacancies but really hard to pick one that suits my qualification.

*I wonder have I chose a wrong course, in terms of getting a job in SG?*

It haunted me everyday, even at the middle of night. SG....SG....You seem so far away from me!
It's 6pm now. Feeling terrible. Sigh. Bye.

Im lost, where am i?

I am away from blogging for such a period of time,
Almost 2 months from last post, what am i busying actually?
Guess myself almost forgotten got such an account existed here.
Sorry, I have to recall what had actually happened for this period.

After my viva presentation, it came to the correction period. It was a disastrous and hectic time to go through frankly. But thank god i was able to make it back to hometown before the due date reached. Guess what, I had a strange feeling when dealing with my supervisor to grant for an early 'Pass' to go back home. Finally, I put all the negative feelings behind and got myself on the flight in a rush. A special thanks to my bro Tong for helping me up all this while.

After a month of jobless life, I was sms-ed by Ahyi for a part-time job at his place (Nibong Tebal). A place that I been to only once sometimes ago. I took a while to decide and grabbed my bus ticket for my few weeks jobs there. It was fun and really a good move as I was partner with ahyi in completing the whole Banci stuff. A token of appreciation for my bro ahyi and special thanks to his family members too. I had great weeks there!

Although the real banci period still on-going, but i got myself back earlier. Now, Im prepared myself to go SG for a job. Please, I want an interview.