开始懂了

'开始懂了'
这四个字对我而言充满神秘，似乎遥不可及，
思想已渐渐地被封锁了，在密不透风的空间中拼命挣扎，
只希望能逃离一切，返回原来的起点，
自问一句，我能吗？

再多的垂死挣扎都无补予事，
面临精神崩溃，进退两难，
只好默默地祈祷，但愿能减低精神折磨，
叹声一句，‘懂’离我真远。

茫茫人海中有的只是擦肩而过，
有的却放缓或暂停脚步，
很少能进入彼此的世界，逗留长久，
但愿一切能停留，陪伴着彼此长大。

停留的只是脑海中不断涌现的回忆，随着时间慢慢转淡，
害怕会被时间剥夺那少许的回忆，
吞噬记忆中储存短暂的快乐回忆，
心中开始茫然，失去方向感。

心中呐喊的声音能传达到你耳边吗？

Entering Murni World

This is really a famous mamak stall with various style of foods..It is just a creative style for kl ppl..actually i do taste great and for sure the place will be crowded when the sky turns dark..
Elaine , cWay n me were craving for korean bbq set that evening but it disappointed us (promo for nite time was cancelled) DAMN IT...

The roti bacon with bacon (of coz) and tuna inside..

This one i forgot what name ady - inside with salad..not bad rite??

Walk about at the Nite Market and tried the soya tang yuan tau fufah..not so sweet actually..kinda nice oso...AT LEAST a new stuff for me..wahahaha...Taking along the heavy laptop and without bathing after working was rather suffering for me..Mood was gone as well after walk a while. Next time nite market shud be nicer..i hope so..

Pasta ZANMAI & Cendol

Ya..It is saturday again. Weekend is fun actually..This time we planned to go midvalley.So after fetching Yan from working place then go straightly.It was a damn hot day. This kind of weather really killing me. Sweating after jamming along the LDP with those 'NICE' weather kinda making me pissed off.
When we passed by the Brickfield, Yan told me there is a stall selling cendol quite nice. Can give a try!!Good, since we were there already. Plus the hot sun which is the catalyst for me to make a quick decision. The Red Bean cendol costs RM2 per bowl.

After that, we headed to the Midvalley. Straight to the point. We went to Pasta Zanmai which we know it is costly. Never mind, just give a try. We ordered a Pasta salmon and Unagi set as well as ocha (the japanese tea). Total bill came out RM52.
That is Yan with her Pasta salmon with that smile on her face. Happy face..HAHHAH..
Here am i with the dishes..Look cool right?pretending only...hahahahha...

我不懂友谊

在我字典中友谊其实并不复杂，单纯的感觉和真诚的对待罢了
偶尔关心，这只需几句问候语，就能让对方感觉到那份可贵
但这一切并不如我所想像般那么天真
我可能过分关心，让这份友谊变质了
不能变成像以前般，那简单的关心对待
却很窝心，很感动

随着时间的飞逝，以前般的友谊不存在了
少了那一份关心其实并不重要
只是感觉十分浪费罢了
眼前的一杀那转变，让我始料不及，无法面对
但慢慢地我也许向现实低头

朋友，你们在我生命中是多么的重要
我永远都珍惜你们，关心你们

相机诞生了

希望拥有一架相机是一直都是我脑中的念头
今天终于买了，但很不幸地它的价钱不是我看到那般
商业手段吧！我给他们骗了，加起全部都需RM427.
多了RM80 。。
但都买了没关系吧！就珍惜它啦！

看来我也该节省点啦
还需买电话,那儿都需一笔钱啦
想些办法不浪费那么多钱吧

今天午餐吃了McD..感觉很热气，怕生病了
还是多喝点水吧。。
房间真的蛮热一下，很辛苦啊！

内心话

一些话无法说出口,那种感觉很痛苦
没有勇气说出口,憋在心里面(让它埋藏至永远)
就连朋友都无法坦诚说出内心话
爱需要勇气,表达也需勇气,
对着朋友也需要勇气
很辛苦,很无助

就是永远开不了口让你知道,
这一切只能当回忆, 回忆当初没有勇气,
对着你无法吐真言的感觉。
对着你无法坦诚
再见了。。朋友。。永远的朋友

时间停留

停留那一秒钟可带给我不少的欢乐，
至少我还能和你当朋友，
至少我们能像以前般快乐，
现在一切都不能挽留，就让它随时间渐渐离开我们的记忆
那短暂的时间可无法忘去

朋友，
离开我，疏理我，
我珍惜你，关心你，
这一切都是出之内心的，
没有半点谎言，真诚对待
到头来却让我痛苦，为何？

零缺点

零缺点---这似乎不大可能发生
我想追求完美，让生活转变。。
一切如真的朝向完美迈进，这可能不是我自己了
需要辛苦改变，又让自己不能从镜子中找寻回熟悉的脸孔。。
生活变得无趣

目光朝向好的方面正是我现在需做的事
别想完美了，不可能发生了
开心面对自己才是对的，真心对待每个身边的朋友
让大家过得开心，愉快！

心情起伏不定。。

从很久之前，我开始发觉我无法有效地控制情绪，这令我很苦恼。
每当我不开心，我选择独自沉默，让我慢慢平伏心情。
但这一切不是能够让我身边的朋友了解，这种发式只能够对我自己。
我真不希望会影响到他们，对不起。

最近我的确像很多心事，但却无法说出口，‘开不了口’。
很纳闷在这半年的实习，想尽快回家，让我过回以往的生活。
能吗?很累。。很累。。
偶尔想起家人会蛮开心的，他们不会远离我，一直都会关心我。
开始想家了。。。

家里虽然不大不宽阔，但很舒服。不像现在，向下楼都须想想，很不自由。
可能我自己不习惯，我真希望我自己住，天天回家能够躺得舒服。
四个月了都不习惯，明白了跟他们很难沟通，使我的问题吧！
不写了，要去走走了。。

累了。。。

突然感觉累了。。
不知何故这感觉缠着我，托慢我的步伐。
在这时候说这话的确很伤人心，毕竟我都还没正式踏入社会。
我也没借口这么说，但我感觉很累。。
给我多一份时间呼吸，多一点放松。。
这可能有所帮助

担心着未来的前途，一个漫长的路途，是否有人协助？？
这一切都无法得到答案。。只好等待着它的来临。。
希望一切能如愿以尝，那有多好！！

Days in Genting

Ya..this was a day or probably 2 days Genting Trip with my beloved yan..it was a memorable day for me although Genting should a frequent place for us to hang out nowadays...A night over there was truly fantastic when after working ...this is so called relaxing to the maximum...hahaaha...
It was so coincidence that Earth hour was fell on that night..we wondered how would the place if no lights for an hour..hahaha...probably too naive..Genting just stop all the machines for an hour...but the light still ON...we were able to see our fingers well...

Weekend in Seremban

3rd of April...Friday nite..i decided to go seremban with Marcus...follow his car(ferrari)...
really fast...without noticing we reached seremban already..after that, dinner at his room..Home cooked.. Great!!!Nite time yamcha with kemei as well..chatted till late 1am only back home..
Tried chicken rice there, curry laksa as well.Those are seremban's favourites. Great...
Sometimes it is nice to spend a weekend like this rather than just stay at home doin nothing but on9ing...although time spent here about the same but maybe i found it better than just at kl there...dun know why....