A 'NO, NO'

Got to know is a 'NO' word

It's a mixed feeling grows in my heart

My hope for SG turns into darkness, kinda unbelievable my application was actually being turned down

I must get up and search for another possible vacancy

Another try, why not?

Ever have surrounded with negative thoughts?

Negative thoughts arise, whenever the day turns dark

When darkness prevails, I seem live in an abyss with nothing to hold on

Helpless craws in my mind. I wish to escape, searching for light.

The night begins,

Clock ticking, so does the heart beats

The ticking sound accompanies me

The night has swallowed up the joyfulness of the day

It makes me feel empty

A long night awaits me

A Call, Perhaps?

My God..I'm now started to feel nervous in my vein. Where is my call? I just want a job in SG. Is it that hard to get it? Today, 4th Aug, Wednesday. She told me to call me by today, where is it?

Maybe need few days more for processing purposes? I have to calm myself with those excuses. *Shout* A job please! Whole day long sitting in front of my laptop scrolling through all the possible vacancies but really hard to pick one that suits my qualification.

*I wonder have I chose a wrong course, in terms of getting a job in SG?*

It haunted me everyday, even at the middle of night. SG....SG....You seem so far away from me!
It's 6pm now. Feeling terrible. Sigh. Bye.

Im lost, where am i?

I am away from blogging for such a period of time,
Almost 2 months from last post, what am i busying actually?
Guess myself almost forgotten got such an account existed here.
Sorry, I have to recall what had actually happened for this period.

After my viva presentation, it came to the correction period. It was a disastrous and hectic time to go through frankly. But thank god i was able to make it back to hometown before the due date reached. Guess what, I had a strange feeling when dealing with my supervisor to grant for an early 'Pass' to go back home. Finally, I put all the negative feelings behind and got myself on the flight in a rush. A special thanks to my bro Tong for helping me up all this while.

After a month of jobless life, I was sms-ed by Ahyi for a part-time job at his place (Nibong Tebal). A place that I been to only once sometimes ago. I took a while to decide and grabbed my bus ticket for my few weeks jobs there. It was fun and really a good move as I was partner with ahyi in completing the whole Banci stuff. A token of appreciation for my bro ahyi and special thanks to his family members too. I had great weeks there!

Although the real banci period still on-going, but i got myself back earlier. Now, Im prepared myself to go SG for a job. Please, I want an interview.

Counting Dayssss

Days after days....
It finally comes to an end....probably ending now...
waiting viva presentation but lazy doing slides...how?
play games all day long, day till nite, then sleep....
how dull is my life will be?

tomorrow will be the 9th of May,
my brother will be heading back to home,
2 more weeks later will be my turn, guess so....
why i always like kinda emo here?
how come i didnt use to share nice stuff here?

I lazy to continue my last post as i dun feel like continue..
maybe that time so eager to write but now....nope....
the feeling just isn't so ....forgive me.....
what next? shake legs life or probably shake hands too...
haha...just wana back n meet my family n friends...
feel like long time didnt meet up...although just months ...

shirley ah shirley ...when u coming back?
i know probably december...still long to go....
ah siang also will be heading to sg soon...probably cant meet up when i back...
wish u all the best of luck in future, in everything!

Thanks god! It's almost time for sleeeep...
Have a great nite everyone =)

Heading to the end....

ENding does smell good....exactly when u are AWAY from all those stupid assignments, reports, some more the crazy ever thesis writing. It is just less than 2 months time I will be going to say BYE BYE to my lovely Uni life....gonna miss it soon...I guess....to all my beloved friends here...

It is going to be a full speed track now....Rushing assignments and thesis by the end of due date...*It is terrible, You Know* WTH....I feel damn scare whenever I see my supervisor, feel that Im so coward at that moment...WHY? Just merely because I havent prepare to meet her personally. Ishhhh....It was really a damn weird situation when u imagine I ran inside toilet to avoid her....what....the.....h....hahahahah....she is supposing help me up right?

I GONNA MISS MY SIU FRENS HERE~~~~

GUYS....how come we need to be separated when it's time to separate? Ishhh...what am I talking about? Just feel damn uneasy when all my friends have to be away from me.....Goshh...I gonna miss you guys soon....4 years long....hardly built up....appreciate it to the fullest....

Let me intro out my SIU frens here....

*My dearest Yan*
Emmm...she is one of the group member...actually kinda weird...how to intro...mmm...just....I no need to miss her actually here...coz i gonna see her everytime after this...hahahahha...*HEHE*

*Ah pek matt*
still remember the time he fetched me with his bike...hahaha....nice...but pity his bike too....im that heavy....wakakakka....chubby face...nice guy...thanks alot for your helping hands...everytime i need help...

*puto yi*
Really puto you...really funny when I recalled I got to know you since the MSM time...Actually u have changed plenty...I mean appearance..Dun believe? U browse your ancient pictures and see...bet you sure agree..!!!hahahaha....I sure miss the BANANA time with you...*I got a feeling*~~~it's always end up with 'jiak jio' time...hahaha...

*tony vincent tong*
Big tong....cant tahan whenever he shows off his body in front of my mirror...when I first know him he was preeety shy....I guess...the conversation like this
*where are u from**Im from ipoh,u?*
*Im from selangor, shah alam** What course?*
*Food science,u?* *ME too...., ssmp..*
Walao eh...if u still talk to me like that now , I guess I will punch u directly...haha..jk jk....

*Marcus foooooo*
He is just a funny guy...damn cheerful and friendly...say all good things bout u ady....enough friend ady gua...He is one of the closest friend that Im able to share feeling and thoughts with. Appreciate him alots and super nice mixing with him everytime...

*kepo mei*
cute little girl...super high tone when speaking...mix around with her only realise she really treats friend nice till sometimes I do feel paiseh coz I didnt treat her the same way. Oppsss..soreee...Although we didnt really share secret or what...but I do feel what she feels sometimes..maybe mix around for a period of time ady...cant escape from my *mata tajam* wakakakaka...

*SMALL FACE SW*
I wonder why we cant really close together....maybe emmm...just...hard to explain..but anyway she is one of my closest frens since first year no doubt.Glad to know her actually coz she always pop out with those funny thinking....would rather kill me off instantly....hahhaha...

*laine my ex-companymate*
I really close with her until the time we mixed around at Fonterra. Actually she has plenty of things to chat and quite funny in person..I felt extremely grateful coz got her with me at that 6 months time...at least got ppl let me kacau when im bored.

---TO be continue-------
sleepy ady....chaozzz....

迷惘

随着步入夜深中，显得十分宁静。为何还是无法专心？可能我缺乏耐心，总觉得无法做出令自己满意的东西。很想一步登天，却明白是不可能。距离越靠近了，心中难免一丝丝忧愁。寻找着那道灯光，带领着我，牵引着我步入明确的方向。

新年。。。快完了

初十四了，多一天就代表新年正式结束。。。可以说圆满结束了吧。
回到这里，都还没有心情把搁置了好一段时间的引擎再度开启，很懒散吧！
家里开赌了两天，玩玩下联咯下感情，说得好听啦！
过了明天一切如旧，开始冲刺下剩余的三个月吧！
朋友们，加油啦！尽情享受日子！！！

A few occasions digged out my memories

Suddenly glanced through the picture folders and refresh my memories throughout these few years..it just like happened last nite....
A day we celebrated kemei birthday. I guess really few years back ady...
This was the day we celebrated matt's bday!!this one quite latest..just last year only.
silly funny nite..really cant remember where we were heading that nite...just happened to catch pictures before going out!!
Ya!!this one sure remember..the first day i about went for clubbing but....sadly....'eat banana'....then...just drank beer at upperstar...
Cipong!!!wakakkaka....this one is also kemei's bday celebrated at kkbox...
Tanglung festival!!!2009!!first ever huge group walking street with lanterns...
koren's food in kk there....quite nice actually!!n cheap too...can have a try!!
raya open house in likas stadium...eat all for free!!!
all about padas rafting!!sat long journey bus n train just to go there!!
sandakan trip that was great...if without the long journey bus travel.....
cameron trip during LI time...really happening that day....
the recent kelly bay trip...quite enjoying with banana boat....syokkkkk....

Love ya all....~~~

CNY coming soon

blink blink eyes...
almost cny already...coming back in a week time...really damn fast!!
i wana shop as much as i could in kl then back ipoh enjoy!!!
yea!!!long time no back ipoh ady..miss ipoh alot !!!

Happy birthday to My bro Neo

Here I wana greet my bro(Neo) Happy Birthday.Hope you enjoy a wonderful and memorable birthday celebration....take care there...

Time flies~

Time flies...
It's middle of January and yet my thesis progressing speed still damn slow..
What I can do? Continue the lab without having pit-stop?Yes.I guess.
The best stuff for lab time is none other than having fun with friends.
Gossip-ing, Kepo-ing everytime whenever has chances..
CNY is coming soon, guess what? I didnt feel the excitement but abit sorrow. Maybe I can sense our study life will end soon....

Craps.....I really didnt enjoy enough for my 4 years time in KK. Oppss.. maybe Im demanding too much...I love my life here as well...

刺‘玲’

之前那一轮番地批评，已经把这部电影降了好几个级别，
今天终于见识了那所谓的笑话，真让人感觉这戏的卖点究竟是两个不会演戏的笑话，还是筹备了蛮久的剧情。真如别人说，如果想看女主角的话，的确蛮不错的。去戏院看还是免了吧！还以为能感受一下那份刺入人心的故事，但却当笑话般看。今天还是找别部戏还原心情吧！

残酷的现实

人为何能那么的现实，那么的自私，
肉眼永远都无法辨别人心的真诚，
蒙着双眼的世界，才能体会到人性的丑态，
那份对人心的恐惧逗留在心中，怀疑他人的真诚对待，

为何呢？
人为何树立着‘人不为己，天株地灭’的心态呢？
为何总要只为自己着想，能抽出一点空间为身边的人想想吗？

无品德的人多的是，真正见识过真的寥寥无几，
却无意中发觉了，这些无法顾及他人的感受只像对自己的好处的人会活得开心吗？
有时真的怒火中烧，但却不能够做任何行动。很无奈！！

年终来临

眼见2009就快步入尾声，是时候迎接2010了吧！
回想年初时还在实习当中，眨眼间就到年尾了，真快！
六个月实习真的带来了无限的变化，住了半年吉隆坡，蛮习惯的。
回到沙巴，果然不一样，像一切慢了半拍似的，生活都改变着。
步入第四年了，忙到死，赶到半条命，到头来却像没得到什么，无趣。
放假却没回家，做了应该做的事但却还是得重新再做，真无奈。

The last Aim Nite

Sudden feeling brought me to this post. Wana upload some pictures for the very last Aim Nite held in Shangri-La.





Great memories..Not bout the night but for the 4 years.

A Great Celebration

Nothing is better than celebrating Big Day with the one you care and love. Although it is simple but I had just a wonderful day with her. I guess it would be my last Big Day celebration in KK and the memories will be saved in my mind. Okay. Let the pictures tell everything!

December starts

December begins with a GOOD news. I have to re-correct my FYP chapter 1-3. This is just another disaster for me. I thought I have done with it but end up have to change again. Damn bored you know! But one good thing here is I still have less labs than others. Maybe just illusion for now later will cause me headache. Who knows?

疲累的步伐

刚渡过人生第一个和最后一个23岁生日，这是最后一年代在这儿过，也代表着不久后将迈入另一个阶段。回想起大学生涯，当时是带着充满期待的心飞抵沙巴。毕竟小时候的愿望是能有朝一日能大学毕业，当时真的觉得为何我会独自去东马。中学朋友也得分开了，有点不习惯但毫无怨言地订机票。可能我懂我应该没有选择的余地，只好乖乖就范吧。

眨眼间四年了，时间飞逝，也许不该抱怨着大学功课有多繁忙，本应该好好享受着四年吧。现在却是四年来最忙的时候，时间过得更加快。再快的步伐也已经无法追回失去的时光了，不该叹气，抬起头向前走吧。

当从繁忙中偷来空闲，脑海中不断涌现当时那颗恨不得赶快毕业的心，现在却逐渐熄灭了，反而不舍得这儿。很矛盾，又重新想回之前定下的目标，该朝着这个方向奔驰了。。。突然有点想家，半年没回家了。做儿子应该不是那样吧！

Holidays begin! Nightmare starts as well!

It has been a very fast end sem. Maybe we kinda rush for everything. Early in the sem, we just got ourselves back from LI then quickly adapted ourselves in thesis preparing mood. Now, we are free from proposal. Time to start our very disastrous lab time. These 2 months holidays will be the first time i stay in KK for my sem break and the very last sem break ever for my 4years time here.

Actually i like KK here too. Familiar with the life here, the frens here as well. Few months later will be saying GOODBYE to KK and frens. Time to prepare to utilize fully on enjoyment. Great!!

Opss..it's time to prepare for ssmp lab tour again. TOUR. I wish too.